Rainy Days...

Days like today make me wanna lay in bed cuddled in the sheets with hot chocolate...unfortunately I had to go to school and deal with whatevers going on in my head these days. So I pretty muched haven't talked to anyone all day...I'm in the mood to cut everybody off today and keep my headphones on and block out the world. Its hurting me so much that this is the position we're in right now...how can everything so perfect crash and burn in just one month? I don't know what I want or what to think anymore. Its just too hard. I can't keep this smile on all the time. I just wanna break down and cry and show that I'm not perfect and I'm tired of trying to be....Why does life have to be so complicated? I'm 15 not 25. I should be able to laugh and actually mean it and instead I'm looking for an escape of reality and stressing everything that enters my life. The rain today feels like all the tears I've been holdong back for a while now.Like its just a downpour of hurt, stress and pain....If only this day can go by faster...SimplyPut...Finding An Escape Is'nt The Easiest Thing To Do Sometimes Its Better To Face Problems Head-On...