Trapped

Going around and around in an endless maze
Never finding a way out
She throws up her words
And holds back her anger

Unhappy and alone
She seeks to find refuge
Happiness or love
But yet its just a state of mind
For one to achieve those goals

Eyes red
Wrist bruised
Heartbroken
And there's no escape
No where to run
To hide and take comfort

Crys that cannot be heard
Words that cannot be said
Trapped in her own head
Dark thoughts surrounding her entire existence
With only a state of mind as an escape

Break-Ups

It finally happened...there relationship ended. Do I feel bad? No, and because he's my best friend of course I want him to be happy but he's happier without her. And I just want him to be happy...well me too of course so I guess I'm happy for my own selfish reasons. But hopefully since everythings out there and they realize there not meant for each other they wont try and work things out. I don't know why I care so much about it when I'm still with him but I just do and I can't help it. And with everything thats been going on I most definitely need him in my life right. He makes me happy. Plus we're on a break right now so its not like I'm doing anything wrong. And although this isn't gonna fix us, I think we just needed a break from each other. And nothing is meant to be perfect. A perfect relationship is a relationship where you can through trials and tribulations and still love each other and right now we're going through that. Happiness is his priority for me and I want the same for him so until then...SimplyPut...A Break Up Is Like A Broken Mirror. It Is Better To Leave It Broken Than Hurt Yourself  Trying To Fix It.

Rumors

People keep coming up to me and asking if me and him go out. Its like we can't do anything without people assuming that somethings going on between us, like exs can't be friends anymore. SMH. People need to grow up and mind there own thats all I have to say about it. And if there was something going on between us why would it be your business. Like right now, my friend is going through some stuff with a stupid boy just cause she doesn't like him. If she liked you then fine but don't go starting rumos about her just cuase she doesn't! They have nothing better to do than talk about people cause there insecure about themselves and have nothing better to do with there lives and its truely pathetic. But overall I'm extremely happy about eveything right now. Personally I think we should all treat the days as if its our last. I think no rumor or person should stop you from what you want, they're just there to slow you down. I say go for it. Life is beautiful and you only live once, so let nothing stop you. SimplyPut...   Being Happy Doesn't Mean That Everything Is Perfect. It Means You've Decided To Look Beyond The Imperfections.

FU*K YOU !

SMFH. Of all days he wants to bring up my past today, like really. He has a lot of fuckn nerve to do that. And knowing the type of person that I am and that I had a good reason not to tell you cause if this exactly you just wanna throw that up in my face, like seriously. I didn't even lie to him about, I told him the truth leaving out that one detail to protect myself... to keep me from getting hurt. And he acts like he doesn't have a past, like he never did anything stupid and didn't tell me about it. I can't even think about it anymore, its just gonna get me madder and madder and I'm damn sure not talking to him. I gotta be a famn fool! I don't have time to worry about this and he has to realize that thats my past and hes my present (for now anyways) SimplyPut...For Every Mintue You Are Angry You Lose Sixty Seconds Of Happiness And Give Up Sixty Second Of Peace Of Mind...

Awkwardd

So as the days go by our relationship gets stronger and stronger. Though I didn't mean for them to break up, but he should really be happy and he deserves to to be. Although they broke up though I still feel guilty and I can't really look him straight in the eye. And the worst part of it is that, as much as we try to avoid each other or whatever, we still have mutual friends and it'll get so awkward for me when I see her. But I see no reason for me to to guilty, I mean I didn't do anything wrong, well in my eyes at least. She probably hates me but its not like I can do anything about it and its not like I want her to like me. Its just real awkward for me and the more time we spend together the more feelings I develop for him and thats not good cause its about to be 7months next Friday. He's still a big part of my life too and I don't want to let that go at all. But aside from all that I'm still happy (somewhat) and I'm not involved with any drama, so that's good. Soo nothing else to write about sooo SimplyPut...

Welcome To 1961

Its finally the new year...2011. I can't believe people have come such a long way. And how everything has changed especially the clothes...its unbelieveable fashion these days. From Bellbottom jeans to Skinny jeans, from Polka dot dresses to low cut backless V-necks. Plus the funny thing is is that all these styles are coming back...one way or another. The waistline and hipline areas began to be redefined. Bloused tops were much more shallow. Princess dresses and coats were a great deal more shaped at the front, and loose overblouses were belted or sashed. Some of the avant-garde designers revived the high Empire bosom line marked by a fabric band or sash. The Pauline Trigere collection named this the "high-pitched" silhouette. The armhole grew smaller, which in turn gave the bosom area more definition. Bias-cut clothes clung much closer to the figure. Diagonally drawn, shallow drapery was used to mold the torso. Many draped evening dresses were drawn upward at one shoulder with the other shoulder bared. As the torso became more fitted, the hemline dropped a little and took on more flare. Cone-shaped or bell skirts were set over interfacing to give a smooth, firm silhouette, above which was placed an overblouse of jacket. Many pleated skirts were shown beneath hipline jackets or long overblouses. Slender-looking skirts sread into walking width by means of deep, umpressed panels at front or sides. Wide flounces or borders of feathers or flowers appeared at the hemline of short evening dresses.
 Fashion now is sort of a mixture of previous decades. In the early 2000s women wore Ugg boots, jean miniskirts, Burberry, hip-hop inspired sweatpants, Daisy Dukes, ripped jeans, denim jackets and Tank tops showing there stomach. Colors like baby blue, yellow and hot pink were popular. From the mid-late 2000s women wore lowrise skinny jeans, cowboy boots, trenchcoats, longer tank tops and Boho inspired dresses. And now fashions are still the same.