New Beginnings

So, what I'm looking for is a fresh start. A new beginning where I can just start over again. Today already hasn't gone the way I wanted it to, I mean I was hoping so bad to see him and I get he has to go to school but...I don't know anymore. Its hard trying to make it work but I don't wanna throw away 5 months of love, feelings, trust, and everything just cause of 1 month of problems keeping us away. Everythings changing and so fast. And another thing is that I can't help but feel something for him...I mean we both obviously moved on but there's still something there. I just wanna start things over...back when I knew what I wanted and I knew how to get it. Now there's just so much tension and doubt...I just want things the way they used to be, how they're supposed to be. SimplyPut...Nobody Likes Change But Thats The Only Way In Life That'll Help Us Grow

Questions&Memories 11/24/09

Its like now he doesn't know what he wants...I guess we're in the same position now cause I don't either. And this question that he wants to ask me is just killing me inside. Apprently it has to do with yesterday and me? I don't know and I can't bare not knowing if it's how he feels or what he wants...In my head I just keep replaying all our memories and now we made another one. I mean our first kiss, our date, and especially today...I can't help but think that a year ago everything was so perfect with him and now its like were starting over. And I can't help but wonder 'What about him?' I mean he has a huge part in this considering for the past five months everything has been nothing but perfect...until now...But if anything does happen I don't want to end up making him my rebound...he's already more than that to me.SimplyPut...Everything Happens For A Reason and if we're meant to be...we'll be.

Past Loves

Soo today would be a really good day...aside from the fact that they might break up and that we were actually meant for each. Having that feeling is like realizing everythings falling into place. I feel bad though cause maybe it didn't need to happen this way, but then again life's that way...you cant stop whats meant to be.And this morning...WOW it just felt like the way the used to be...fun and games but just that little spark...SMH though. Should I even be thinking about this when it ended so long along and when I have someone now...?Its like...I don't know what I want anymore...Well eventually things will work out for themselves and whatever happens...happens. SimplyPut...Que Sera